To grow in many ways and consistently demonstrate my willingness and courage to take the next step, to see myself with more clarity through helping others, to be devoted to use what God gave me inorder to achieve what I desire and offer myself to the greater good of the planet. - Xandz '07

Friday, April 27, 2007

Early Morning Kulitan

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Walang magawa!

Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP)

Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men.
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.
You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

Mt. Apo

Hello guys!

I'm already booked for Davao on September! One of my dreams will come true again! I'm climbing the highest mountain in the Philippines! Yahoooo!

Mount Apo is a large stratovolcano on the island of Mindanao in the Philippines. It is the highest mountain in the country and overlooks Davao City.


To all my friends in Davao, I'll be there from September 15- 23! The climb is on Septemeber 20-22, so I guess I'll roam around Davao from 15-20. I need help on my I.T. there. I'm thinking of diving too at Pearl Farm before the climb and do the White Water Rafting. I really don't have an idea so far. I can probably skip the WWR because we'll do it in Cagayan de Oro on October. Anyway, any suggestions?


After that I'll probably climb Mt. Kinabalu in Malaysia next year.
Mount Kinabalu (Malay: Gunung Kinabalu) is a prominent mountain in Southeast Asia. It is located in Kinabalu National Park (a World Heritage Site) in the east Malaysian state of Sabah, which is on the island of Borneo in the tropics.

Okay, let's not go to that first. One at a time. Ha ha ha! I remember Hanai told me to stop climbing mountains and dive a lot instead. He thinks it's a lot safer. We'll see. We'll see. But for now, I'm asking my friends to support me on this by praying for my safety as I take on this challenge. Next month I have to be serious in working out! Please pray for me. I need to be alive because someone will be waiting for me. (Woohoo! Kilig naman kayo?)


Thanks!

Friday, April 20, 2007

T.G.I.F.

Yey! I can't wait to see my highschool friends tonight!


Jannah's despedida and Nat's birthday party!


I think we will be complete tonight. I just hope to see the guys too. I need to prepare for a long night of alcohol and rantings over guys and love problems! Ha ha ha! Tonight is actually one of our so called "i-broke-up-with-that-a**hole or my-bf-is-a-pain-in-the-a**" kind of emergency gathering! Ha ha ha! Good times, bad times.


Then , tomorrow... aaahhh... I'm off to Anilao for another diving adventure!

Have a nice weekend to everyone!

The ABC's of Me.

THE LETTER A
Are you available?: Right now? Sure. Just call or text me for anything.
What is your age?: 25
What annoys you?: Always-right people. Liars. Cheaters. People who can't get a hint!

THE LETTER B
Do you live in a big house?: Not at all.
When is your birthday?: December 23
Who is your best friend?: Ching (but I have few good good friends in my life too like Mei, Emong, Ryan, Ana, Jannah, Nat, Anne, Micar, Annalyn, Chiella)

THE LETTER C
What's your favorite candy?: Gummy Bears!
Who's your crush?: Aaaww wala! Kung meron man hindi ko alam name nya!When was the last time you cried?: A while back.

THE LETTER D
Do you daydream?: Why not, it's free!
What's your favorite kind of dog?: Golden Retrievers, Shih Tzus and Siberian Huskies
What day of the week is it?: TGIF!

THE LETTER E
How do you like your eggs?: Funny but yes!
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Couple of times.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Eat.

THE LETTER F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: Yep.
Do you use fly swatters?: Nope.

THE LETTER G
Do you chew gum?: Yes, because I love candies so much.
Are you a giver or a taker?: A giver, I'd like to think.
Do you like gummy candies?: Yup!

THE LETTER H
How are you?: Sleepy.
What color is your hair?: Ash brown.

THE LETTER I
What's your favorite ice cream?: Give me plain chocolate, vanilla or strawberry and I'll be happy.
Have you ever ice skated?: Yes, I like skating. I actually owned two rollerblades as a kid.

THE LETTER J
What's your favorite jelly?: Nothing in particular.
Do you wear jewelry?: Yes I do. Tiffany is a bestfriend. :)

THE LETTER K
Who do you want to kill?: Wala din.
Do you want kids?: I love kids.

THE LETTER L
Are you laid back?: Yes. Pretty much.
Do you lie?: I try not to lie to anyone because I hate it when people lies to me.

THE LETTER M
What's your favorite movie?: Wedding Singer
Do you like mangoes?: Yes, infact I like to have mangoes now.

THE LETTER N
Do you have a nickname?: "Dada" is the famous one during hschool and college. But now I have several nicknames too like "bixiang" and "xandz" etc etc...
Whats your favorite number?: 8 and 23
Do you prefer night over day?: HHHmmm... i think so.

THE LETTER O
What's your one wish?: Good health to my family and loved ones.
Are you an only child?: Nope. I have 3 siblings.

THE LETTER P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: Having any member of my family die.
What personality trait do you look for in people?: Sense of humor, wit, general outlook towards life, honesty, faithfulness, etc.

THE LETTER Q
What's your favorite quote?: "We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are."

THE LETTER R
Do you think you're always right?: Sadly, I'm usually right.

THE LETTER S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Sun.

THE LETTER T
What time is it?: 2:04PM
What time did you wake up?: 6AM
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: OH just recently.

THE LETTER U
Are you wearing underwear?: DUH.(of course no!) Ha ha ha!

THE LETTER V
What's the worst veggie: I don't know. I love veggies as in.
Where do you want to go on vacation?: B-E-A-C-H tayo!

THE LETTER W
What's your worst habit?: Puffing smoke!
Where do you live?: Kapitolyo, Pasig City
What's your worst fear?: Getting some terminal illness.

THE LETTER X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Yes
Have you seen the x-games?: No
Do you own a xylophone?: I did, as a kid.

THE LETTER Y
Do you like the color yellow?: Yup.
What's one thing you yearn for?: Starbucks!

THE LETTER Z
What's your zodiac sign?: Capricorn
Do you believe in the zodiac?: He he he!
Favorite zoo animal?: Tigers.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

To my EX...

I never thought that I could actually say this... but thank you for breaking my heart. I was sad over the realization that everything was over between us. I finally did it. I finally left you. Nobody said it was easy. I thought I would like to give you another chance. But although the wounds have healed, the scars will never go away. I had the hardest time convincing myself that it’s you I want to spend the rest of my life with. I was even thinking of working things out with you again knowing that you love me so much. But no, that’s not what I wanted. I don’t want to lie to myself. I guess I haven’t completely forgotten what you did to me. How you cheated on me, how you lied to me, how to hurt me and the people who loves me. It’s a terrible feeling to know that you’ve been cheated on by the one person whom you love and trust so much. But it was even harder to convince myself that not all people are like that. You were my world but you took me for granted. How long have I prayed for the Lord’s guidance about it. It was painful to forgive. I prayed every single day. God gave me the strength. Yes, I have already forgiven you.


I’m very glad I did the right thing. It was an answered prayer. I’m smiling again. My life became so much sweeter. I could never thank you enough for breaking my heart. If it wasn’t because of that I won’t be this happy now… living… loving… I found my way back into love. I finally found what I’ve been looking for and I couldn’t ask for more.


Thank you.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

... we're better together...

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard,
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
Like a shoebox of photographs,
With sepiatone loving,
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart ,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving,
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together

[Chorus:]
MMM, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together


And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone,
When the morning light sings
And brings new things,
But tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too,
Too many things I have to do,
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I'll be under the impression,
I was somewhere in-between
With only two,
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do,
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
MMM, We're somewhere in-between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmmmm Mmmmm Mmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing,
We're better together

Monday, April 16, 2007

Time

Suppose time is a circle, bending back on itself. The world repeats itself, precisely, endlessly.For the most part, people do not know they will live their lives over. Traders do not know that they will make the same bargain again and again. Politicians do not know that they will shout from the same lectern an infinite number of times in the cycles of time. Parents treasure the first laugh from their child as if they will not hear it again. Lovers making love the first time undress shyly, show surprise at the supple thigh, the fragile nipple. How would they know that each secret glimpse, each touch, will be repeated again and again, exactly as before?

- Alan Lightman Einstein's Dreams

Friday, April 13, 2007

Craving for...

Last night was meant for a movie... but instead we- Mike, Peejay, Primo, and I decided to have a road trip to Tagaytay after work. To think that we were just there last Thursday! It was actually cool for me to go back because I'm really craving for “Bulalo” and “Tawilis”. We didn’t have “Bulalo” the last time.


Anyway, so there I was very excited to finally fulfill my cravings for “Bulalo”, but when we arrived at Leslie's- they're already close! How crazy was that?? Therefore we went to Henlin as an alternative (I like chicken feet too) but since no pets are allowed inside and I brought Chi-Chi with me, we had no choice but to order our food and wait outside.



We chose to eat at Starbucks.



It was fun last night. Really. The road trip, the sound trip and the food trip. It’s all good. I just hope that next time I can really have my BULALO! *smiles*

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Smitten!

I realize it's hard to pretend you're not interested to someone you're very much interested to, entertain somebody who is interested to get to know you and you showering that person a chance...

You get stalked by one of those flings, you're currently standing with Mr. I-hope-Right and the floor sets you in for work. You start to wonder if that fling is really something you'd want to work-out with or it's just one of those days when you just want to get yourself around with someone who'd pamper you in the meantime before you get yourself tied to the statistic of the overrated grown-ups.

Doink! What am I saying here? I. Don't. Know. I'm surprise that I feel like this now. I mean I'm not the type of person who has a lot of crushes. In fact, I hardly get a crush on someone. This is one reason why my friends tell me that I'm high-maintenance, choosy, hard to please, demanding and difficult to like someone. They say it's hard to find a "date" for me. Well... I guess physical attraction is very shallow for me. I'd still go for the man with good intentions and clean deeds. I'm so tired of guys playing around.You know almost all men are womanizers until proven otherwise. And even when you've proven it, you'll just have to let it slide and be "forgiving" until it's time to take the big guns out and use it as ammunition. Gotta strike where it hurts the most. It's a sad fact of life. I mean, seriously.

Sometimes I'm just too cynical and jaded for my own good.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Bla bla!

I am so grouchy with how warm it is. Probably it’s gonna rain again soon. It's officially Summer! I'm so not looking forward to the scorching, humid days that have yet to come. With the way I complain about the heat, one would think I'm not a true-blue island girl. I'm sorry. I do love the beach and the mountain though, don't get me wrong.... I just hate the headaches and migraines I get from the darn hot weather. Even Chi-Chi has colds now! This reminds me of a big big problem because she doesn’t eat! I brought her to the vet already and gave her tons of medications. I’m getting poor spending so much money on her. Last week I even shopped clothes for her.
And now she’s not eating any food EXCEPT for “Andoks Manok”! Everyday I make it a point to come home to my flat during lunch so I could feed her and give her meds. Can you imagine how spoiled my baby dog is? She’s even healthier with all the vitamins! Then I can’t afford to render overtime at work because I know Chi is waiting for me. I just can’t leave her all alone for more hours! Hay! Anyway, despite all, I love her so much. She’s like a real baby to me.